I still feel awful about what happened between me and two days ago. Last night, my heart was pounding so hard, I could feel it in my head, and it gave me a headache. Not only that, I've ben having nightmares too. *Ginger2000 said her mother saw the message. I'm so ashamed, and so afraid. I'm naturally a good person, I don't know what came over me... It could have been graduation stress. I don't know, and it's too late anyway. *Ginger2000 seems to be acting strange. She insists that I don't work on Alienz. I fear it's because of what happened, though she states that she doesn't want me taking up two projects as I have reunite with my old friend ~Jacqueline-Elizabeth and we were working on a project the last time we talked. It's frightening me. Otherwise, they're both talking to me again, but things have changed so much in the last few days, it feels as if I just met them... I'll never be able to get over what's happened. I'm still wracked with pain and heartache. I've been running out, keeping a straight face, even when deep down my emotions and feelings are swirling like a violent thunderstorm. I am happy that everything is good again, but my soul is destroyed...

In lighter news, dispite Grad practice dragging on for hours, it went by pretty smoothly and we got to leave afterward. I had a nice talk with while waiting on my dad, so it went well today. I just hope I can hold myself together tomorrow night.